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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
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Monday, December 19, 2005 2:48 AM
whee. back and woke up from my sleep. lols. actually just now want to blog, but then, went to have my nap instead. this time round, i'm dead. know why? because my dad is like,coming into my room to check that i'm not using my computer til late hours, because he caught me yesterday at 5am. sobs. whatever it is, i've locked my room, and the only light source i have, is this computer that cannot produce any songs, just in case my dad wakes up. lols.

anyway, the more i think, the more i feel that it is true. lols. i do not know why, perhaps, because of the past bahs. you, and someone, are really kind of the same. your two use the same method lo. which makes me feel a way that i cannot describe. perhaps, you don't believe la. but we just wait and see lo. perhaps, i was the one who came to disrupt the lifes of your. i'm sorry. i will leave as soon as possible. but can your please don't lie to me or what, cuz i felt that i'm like a fool, being fooled by you guys. come'on la. please. i beg your, don't let me go in circles can. sigh. thanks for reassuring what i thought a while ago.

went to church yesterday. learn about purpose in life.
what is our purpose in life. we will know it when we know who the Creator is.
if you want to know your purpose, you will have to know your identity and that could only be known if you know who your creator is. people born in this world have so much talents, yet, they keep it and don't use it. is it not a waste of the talents?
we are all living under our abilities, we need to maximise it. and only the way is to ask the Creator.
God never abuses us, He uses us. He knows our purpose, He use our purpose. there is a destiny in us. we are not here for fun. though on the outer surface, we can have jokes, we can have rock music, but ultimately, we have a destiny in us.
Jesus does not care about what the public say about Him, but what you yourself say that He is.
in Matthew 16:13-19, He asked who does the people say that He is. and Simon said, people said that He is one of the prophets. and Jesus turned to Simon and asked him, who do you think I am. and Simon answered saying, You are the Son of the Living God, the Christ and Jesus said, Blessed are you. it was not the people around him that revealed the answer that he say to Simon, but the Father in heaven. and therefore, Jesus said, He will build His church on the rock, and nothing shall prevail against it.
the moment you know the identity of the maker, you can go on to the next step of knowing who you are. if you think you are here on this earth by an accident, then you are special, because God forces this accident to come. everything has a purpose, even the non-living things. is it not sad that the non living things have a greater purpose than the living things? just take a look around you. the chairs, the tables. they all have their own purpose. you cannot make a decision if you do not know what's your destiny. the shortest distance is a straight line. :)

just want you to know, do the things that will make you happy. you may need to make yourself sad, because you cannot do certain things or have to do certain things with your friends so that they will be happy also. but i'm different. i will not want you to do things that make you sad. no matter how bad it is going to affect me, do not force yourself to do things that you do not like, just to let me be happy. this will make me even sadder. cheer up! i will be fine.

sorry ann!guess i'm a bad bodyguard. lols. was not there when you need me. anyway, i was not eating or sleeping. i'm not that pig. lols. i went out. haha. i will call you later, but i need to reach school by 1200noon. and ruohann and yu ding have to reach by 1130am. and for your information, i'm walking from the mrt station to school. lols.